i had a pretty hard time starting off this post. like OMG la.
i've been at home for the past 2 days. and you tell me how your day went. cos mine? hah. its VERY boring. uh huh. with the capital here and there. okay nonsense. didn't manage to even catch a glance of my bf. it's never happened for a very long time. blame Ramadhan. haha.
and yesterday? i didn't wanna go out to meet bf at night cos if i am, im inviting myself to danger. haha. so, yesterday was the 1st day of puase. and i gotta admit. i'd rather be in skool than at home cos it's the SAME DAMN thing. bf's gonna sleep his ass of til buke. and then he's going teraweh. and then hangout with his friends. and god-knows what time he'll reach his house. like yesterday, he reached home at about 2 ++ am i guess. which by then i was alr asleep. and we talked a FEW sentence only. i can prolly count. and syaz is here today. as in at MSN. so, we can prolly company each other since her bf's out with his friends and mine still haven't wake up. oh god.
and needless to say. it's our 5th. and to think, we're going to spend our 6th during fasting month also. how sad can it get? i dunnoe if bf feels the same way as i do. done. and i wanna get some sleep. to let time pass by.
HAPPY 5TH,BF.
and i don't know i'm gonna be this sad. i thought today's gonna be a happy day. done and outta here.
2ND PART OF THE STORY
can i take back some of my words?
bf just sms-ed. and how i pitied him. he had to go thru hell of a time during our 5th. how he had his injections and now his hands are numb right now. how he can't stand by himself. how he needed someone to hold on to. it just makes my heart down. you know. like you're gonna be worried of all kind of things. like is he gonna be okay tmrw cos its saturday. is he going to reply my msg-es now that he's weak and needed rests. and god knows what. just reading his sms-es made me tear. bf, i need you to be strong. please fight those virus. please. i need you right now. pls,bf. if you can't, i'll be your green ranger and fight those monsters. you'll be my flash, rescuing me as fast as u could. okay?
iloveyoualot,nawr. imissyousobadly right now. please tell me you're gonna be fine. thats all i need. :'(
