i can see spiderwebs on my blog. nevertheless, my tagboard is lively. haha. aite. i wanna say something from the heart. okay. to all my peeps, since nawr doesn't want any of you to be involved, please kindly stand behind the yellow line alright? okay settle.
actually, i felt that there's alot to blog about. but then, everything went blank. like a flash. aiyo. just now, mel, omar, wan and afiq cabot halfway. cos aku kasi salah info kat dorg. then check2 dorg kat canteen dgn bag eh. then left aku and syaz je uh. but then, i went off after i presented. my presentation is HORRIBLE la okay? haiya. nvm uh. there's always tomorrow.
oh. and i wanna say a big THANK-YOU to omar and my bro. korg, thanks eh jage ayu tadi. believe me. beneath those jokers, there's some sense of care inside them. oh and not forgetting, mr H. haha. believe it or not. after putting down the phone with him, i felt better. thanks baybeh! (:
dear mr H. you've been very patient with me all along. accepting you in my life in a short period of time may be a mistake cos i know there's alot for us to learn about each other. and despite knowing we have all the time in our world, somehow i felt we rushed things too early. but nevertheless, we can pick up along the way (whatever it is). you may not be as handsome as my ex-es but then, among all you're the kindest i've met so far.
splurging your money away like nobody's business is a crime okay? i hate it when you said "takpe la u. cab ade pe." hello. we're not rich okay? if possible, try to save your money. i learnt the word "saving" thru a stranger by the name of nawr. uh huh. i learnt it the hard way. okay. forget about that.
oh remember the times where we first met? uh huh. haha. i was so damn frustrated with everyone that i decided to vent my anger to you. remember the HSA guy? haha. somehow, it made me smile til now. like totally. haha. and remember how i kept interrupting what you said? and you get pissed off about it? haha. somehow, it seems so funny.
a few days later, u need to serve the country. however, the ties between us become more tighter. you taught me how to be matured in some sense. most importantly, you teach me how to become myself. i am myself lately. i've never been this relaxed for the past few months. i've always been the one who is scared to lose everything. somehow, you also made me want to go to skool. somehow, i feel so small being beside you. its not a matter of size by the way. its a matter of feelings. i feel like a small kid looking up to a big guy. telling me "this is not right. that is not right." somehow, it makes me feel very secure. like totally unbelievable.
to all my ex-es:- sorry if i made your life miserable, esp u, nawr. no matter how irritating i was for the past 5 months plus, im sorry i made you feel as though im not that type of girl. i tried to be one. maybe not much effort was put into that. anyway, thanks for the beautiful memories. i appreciate it alot.
and Nas (i know u wont be reading this), a year with you was never a bore. from a lost soul to an ite schoolboy to a working adult. and now, having your own bike. good for you. im just happy that you made your life happier. somehow, things just don't work out between us. somehow, i understand how you had no time for me cos u'rehandling 2 things, which is work and school. im fine with all that.
these two wont be erased from my mind. thanks and i guess i'll just leave with the good memories and move on. oh and not forgetting, my mistakes. i'll bring it wherever i go. thanks. now, i'll just lead my life as per normal. what happens next is all written in the book. if its meant to be between you and me, we'll just let time decide all of this alrgiht? for the time being, i'll just end my words here.
