i gotta jot it all down here. yes, i really do. let's start from the beginning alright?
im fine now. my tears have merely dried up once i finish blogging. but once i start to read hendra's lj for the 3rd time, i will tear up again. nope. not cos of he's being so self-centered and whatever shits. he's being sweet. i liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiike. (:
so, i woke up at 10.30, eh no. i woke up at 9.45 cos mama was already blabbering about waking up to fetch baba. and then, i quickly dressed up simply and went down to wait for my uncle to fetch us to the airport. then, i suddenly changed my mind of not going cos my cousins said they wanna hang around my place ad wait for baba at home. and abg's not awake yet so, no one's gonna entertain them if i went to the airport. chit chatted abit and then got a call from hendra. went down to tamp as fast as possible. then went to bugis. had a slight tiff there. and then sheesha-ed til 11.15pm cos my daughter is skooling tmrw. and my plan for the next 3 days? yes. to the court. cos i've already promised my cosin that i'll be teman-ing her.
to hendra, my sweetest drug. i never asked for much from u. u always know why im with u. not becos of ur money but becos of u and ur love. maybe money matters in some circumstances, but not all the time. we dont have to buy luxurious stuffs to show each other how much we meant for each other. just a simple "iloveyou" is enough for me. cos im already convinced that u'll do anything for me. yes. people make sacrifices in r/s. but as i told before, i dont expect anything in return. yes. i do miss the times where its just the two of us hanging with each other. playing a fool out of one another. taking loadsa pictures. and most of the times, u irritate me. but no matter how much u irritate me, u'll always make me smile at the end of the day. u've got alot of responsibilities even before u met me. u have ur 3 precious daughters and eyya to take care of. i simply know that. cos somehow, they need some guidance. apart from that, u have silat to attend to. silat will always comes first and then me. nope. im not trying to sound sarcastic, but its true right? i dont blame u. just like skool, i put skool first and then followed by u. people have other priorities in life. family, friends, work, silat. juggling these things aren't easy. i know that. but i know u're capable of it. and i know for everything that u do, u have a reason. working was never easy. yes. i've gone thru that. somehow, u have to make urself settle down first. i dont wanna pressure u. take things slow okay? im always in ur heart. u know that.
even if the stars dont shine even if the moon dont glow i know u'll always be mine so, lets take things slow.
even if things dont go the way u want it to u know im always behind; supporting u. even if the world is crashing u'll know this without me saying; "i'll always love you" & "i'll always miss you"
