im posting randomly right now cos i was so damn fcuked up when i cant log in to blogger.com yesterday. yes. the webbie was being sucha fcuker. i was so damn pissed (okay. not so. but im exaggerating. haha.) becos i got nothing to do and hendra was telling me this : "go and update ur blog la." i wanted to and then it broke down on me. pffts. *____* before i continue, im changing the name bf to hendra cos i find it a much more nicer term than to call him bf.
okay. now, im using kak ngah's laptop. yes. i know hendra. i know that her lappie is so lagging mcm mak die jugak. haha. i find it super cool to type with this thing. nope. not becos mine is not. but becos my lappie's screen CRACKED on me just a few months of using it. dont ask. cos i will skip the "omgawd! what happen to ur laptop screen?" okay wait. im supposed to blog. not just blabber about some things which i wasnt supposed to.
so, basically im supposed to find a job which will help me make myself busy. and currently, i've been to my ONE & ONLY interview which was at Forever21 @ Vivo. and they didnt call me up. so, i suppose i dont get the job offer. wtheck. but i dont care cos Vivo is like so far away laaaa. i cant be bothered. and maybe i went with a friend. and fauziah said that maybe they won't take the both of us becos they cannot practically choose between the 2 of us. oh hell yeah! hahahaha. so skrg aku melanguk kat rumah jual anggur. korg nak? hahaha.
so, i went to hendra's place on tuesday cos he was on his off day. and then saw his mom wore the same bangle as mine. and i was pretty shocked. and becos of that, hendra told his mom about it and stuff. now, i must remind myself that whatever i will be talking about his family, i must make myself clear about some things. cos later he will complain to his mom. pfffts.
and to someone who is/are/will/whatever read this, i wanna say sorry becos i cant help u that much. yes. hendra is my bf and u're my fren. so im stuck in between. i dont want to get involve anyway becos i did the last time and i was told not to masok campor in ur affairs anymore. so, i didnt. whatever i see with my own eyes was between me and hendra. and maybe the four walls. yes. i've gone through much in this friendship thingy. i was backstabbed and maybe, i got nearly killed. so, at that point of time, no one pitied me. oh. actually, there was. and the ones that actually became my friend were not so close to me. i dont mean that im backstabbing you but... so, you see in life you have to go through shits. im not even 18 yet but i have to think what an 18 years old or older should think becos hendra is nearing 21. so, the mindset that i have, the kiddy kiddy mindset, have to change in order to catch up with the REAL life. all this bullshit will come to an end. but then, i dont know when. anyway, i really should say thanks to u becos if it wasnt for you, theres no "HENDRA&AYU" right now. so yeah. what i can only tell you is that pls make a wise decision.
enough about that. wait. i miss baba. baba, i hope you are safe at US cos i miss you terribly. i miss your jokes and sometimes your lame jokes. i miss your scoldings and all. i miss your presence. i miss your everything. 4 (or issit 3?) more days to sunday and then you're back home. im praying that you'll be safe back in s'pore. amin. okay wait. baba will go on a brunei trip for 2 whole F weeks when he gets his 1 week rest after the US trip. double pffts.
so, now everything's settled between ibu and kak ngah. wait. that's what i think laaa. becos of ibu, i didnt get enough sleep. and becos of her, i had to sleep over at ibu's house. and becos of the not enough sleep, i woke up late just to know that baba's alrd at the airport and his flight was at 7.30 am. and becos of hat, i didnt get to meet baba for the last time. and abg too. and she even said this:-
ibu: ayu sayang kak ngah tak? me: ah. (i was sleeping la. and i just couldn't be bothered. deep down, i told myself "who doesn't siak?") ibu: then suroh kak ngah balek rumah la. ni kan rumah dia.
alarmakkkkk. die fikir aku ni budak2 pri skool nak psycho2. i know ur perangai alrd k? and becos ALL this, there were some minor problem to meet hendra. alamak. aku punye sort nak mampos.
one last thing to take note to others out there. im a girl who is very rough and jokes around like how a guy would. so, my type of person can easily get along with the same type of person as me. im a girl and girls do gossip. i do gossip too. but not to the extent til i hate that person very much. so, u see. my friends who always are close to me are not the type who amik hati that easily.
i shall end it here becos im too tired after too much typing. til then, you people take care okay?
