i suddenly have the urge to blog about shira. oh and eyya too.
shira. she once used to be my bitchest friend. nope. not becos she's a bitch. cos she's a friend i can depend on. i somehow dont trust the word best friend anymore. cos bestfriends dont last. i've gone thru alot of times about the word "bestfriend". so, i called her my bitchfriend. and whenever she have problems, she can count on me. yup. sacrifice is all that we need. but when time pass by, i looked after her just like how a mom looks after her daughter. so, now she calls me "mama" and she calls hendra "papa". she's a girl who will be going thru alot of shits but as life goes on, i know she will learn alot. the world is full of bullshits and whatever-shits. but in order for her to survive, she needs some support. i will always be there for u, okay syg? even tho we're not gonna meet like how we used to, u know where to find me right? (: i love you just like how the mother loves her daughter.
for now, i just want u to recover and be happy. i know u're already happy. (:
eyya. the conversation between u and me and abg yesterday really upsets me with ur situation. u're alrd in the process of growing up. i know u know what's good and what's bad. but u cannot just let urself be weak and cry all day long. it doesn't help AT ALL. abg is concerned about u. i know he puts on a smile. but deep down, i know what he's feeling. in order for him to not be more disturbed, i endured with him. thru thin and shits. this is new to me. what i mean is having a bf who have to take care of someone of the opposite sex is alrd a major thing to me. but i have to endure. and i already did. i already let u become part of us. wait it sounds so cruel. u're already a part of us. back then, u used to share ur probs with abg. now u have me. so, if it concerns about girls thingy, i wont be telling him. but if its not, i'll share with him. i know what ure going thru is hard. its even harder for me and abg to take it. see, its double the pain. and with u telling me that u will be missing, im already afraid. im afraid cos i already treat u like my younger sister. see. no matter how rarely i comment u at frenster, no matter how rarely i tag u at ur tagboard, u know im here. u know i can be depended on. i dunnoe if what i wrote here is all bullshit to u. but to me, its not. it comes sincere from the heart. if you cannot stand up on ur feet, then who will help u? me and abg can only advice u. its all up to u. but as much as abg dont want to see u hurt, thats how much i dont want to either. it hurts us alot. pls be strong okay dear?
p.s: i dunnoe if u're gonna read this. but i hope u will. pls take it into consideration. plus the fact that u're taking a national exam at the end of the year, it worries me more. pls dont let it affect ur studies. and i dont want u to regret. i've seen alot of ppl regret what they did for natinal exams. i dont u to be one of them. im behind u, supporting u. that's all that i can say.
