i was too tired to even wake up for skool. as EXPECTED. mama woke me up at 6 and i dilly-dally til 6.15. hahahahaha. wanted to wake the bro up but saw something UNEXPECTED. tarmimie was inside my bro's room and im outside his room, tgh berkemban. wth. i quickly knock on the door and got changed. luckily he was asleep. if not, aku lari mcm lipas kodong.
skool was a-okay. mine and faaiz's team had a cock-ed up presentation. we were shoot-ed(?) with so many questions. especially when it comes to the sociology theories. wth seh. but qaiyum, i think u need to work extra hard. pls dont be lazy anymore. faaiz was mad all the way cos his team was speechless when other classmates shoot them with questions. and after he got back to his seat, he told me this:-
faaiz: eh, why when people shoot question at my team, you just kept quiet? ayu: *speechless* faaiz: what were u doing infron of your laptop? ayu: nothing. just reading blog. can be bothered with the people and presentation. i cock-ed up mine. so, its no use cock-ing up others presentation.
faaiz was mad all the way and he wanted to vent out his anger during soccer. and guess what? yes. it rained. and he was making a huge fuss over it. hahahahaha. i think i braged alot bout it. hahahhahaha. met Mel at the library cos she wanted some help for her blogspot. and lucky kite blaja VB. lau tak, mangkok seh tgk codes2 blogspot. hahahaha. and most of the times, we were talking about the old times. i miss that very much. but what to do. everyone went their own separate ways.
after skool, met hendra, an, joey, hanis, amy, wan and bong @ hall. where else? hahaha. play-ed card and such. and then ask-ed baba to fetch me cos i was too lazy to go home by bus.
and today was a happy day when someone actually made me angry. i seriously know i wasnt backstabbing u. if i would, i would have do it when u and syamil were together. now that you two are not, then why u make a big fuss over it? u claim u didnt love him. but why the hell did u msg him about yesterday. if u dont love him, u would be happy that he has other girls behind ur back. which means, u're not at fault for the break up. im 18 and u're 21. u experienced life 3 years longer than me. and now, u said that u somehow treasure ur friendship than ur relationship with ur cousin. i dont mind at all. but i wanna see who will actually be there for u if u were to have AIDS. will ur fren be supportive of it or will they talk behind ur back. and eversince that, u were always clubbing. im no one to stop u. but dont u see that the place will create trouble. if u were to think and dont club, i dont think all this will be happening. i respected u so much. but when u moved in and i saw ur true colours, i dont know what i should say. im not saying u're bad. everyone has their good and bad side. i dont wanna say that im a good and angelic person. i've done bad things too. but for now, i think i should just silent myself from u. cos i know, if im the one who open this topic, i wont win cos u always wanted to win. despite all the shits that happen, u're still in my blood and i can't deny the fact.
and somehow, hendra told me im not at fault. and i think im not. i believe im not. if im a bitch, i'd leak all out in front of ur bf. enough said. im skooling tmrw. and then tarian and then...
