its not even the starting of skool, and yet i already have plans lined up for me for the 1st week of skool cum the 1st week of puasa. how can i survive? i dunnoe if im gonna be strong for this coming puasa, cos the last time, i wasnt.
i was sleeping when bf called me. i ignored cos i was too lazy to reach my phone (which happens to be just an arm-length away). but then, shira msg-ed me asking me whether im going tarian. i replied and told her i will. and then i reached my house phone to call bf. and he told me one of his friends' mom just passed away. innalillah. so, bf asked me to teman him go his friend's house. so, i went out at 2. and thenmost of the time, i just lepak under the void deck with bf, rohmat and hafiz. then the jenazah was being brought down. and suddenly, i feel like crying eventhough i didnt know the arwah. then, i went home while bf went to wdls to have his kenduri arwah at his aunt's place.
now,im having a runing nose and cough. i prefer having cough than running nose. it really sucks man. aiyooooo. now, nobody's at home. bro went for werk. baba fetched mama at nenek place. what a saturday. but it feels good staying at home alone, without anyone disturbing.
starting from tmrw, my plan will be: sunday : silat. monday : no plan. tuesday: silat again. wednesday : skool and silat again. thursday : skool and tarian friday : skool and tarian again saturday : tarian again
yes. it is this pack. and i wonder how am i going to these places after skool, cos its the fasting month.i want to break fast with my family! why am i that busy these past few weeks? i dont feel the holidays. but i feel the holidays ending soon.
so, to ease my(boring)self, i want to set back the time. i rmmbered how horrible it is for me to be very very patient to one of my ex-bf. i fast without fail. cried only at night, cos i know if i cry during te day, i cannot fast anymore. smoke-d only at night until it reaches to a point where i dont feel like smoking anymore. then because of one faithful day, it turned the whole thing around. i started crying everyday, every minute, everywhere. i didnt fast for the last 2 weeks of puasa. but because of that faithful day, i went out with this group of friends, and that was how i met my current bf. that day will never be erased from my mind. from 5 pm til 3 am, i was with him, quarrelling non-stop. haha.
the unknown blind date.
our first ever picture. our first ever time holding hands.
