i've been a very2 bad girl today and yesterday. haha. i didnt attend class yesterday and today. actually i wok up at 7 am and i got myself ready for skool. i went out of the house at 7.45 am and then, i waited for 161 to arrive. first bus came and it was single deck. and so, its packed. so, i waited. while waiting, i got sick and tired of waiting for 161 cos it took so damn bloody long to arrive. and so, the angelic 83 arrived and i boarded the bus. and i went back home. hahaha. thats my tuesday. i onlined for awhile and then i decided to rest since im still sick. at night, i could go glg and i had to train cos there wasn't enough jurulatih. sakit2 pon kene train. and guess what my brother said ? he said, "sakit2 pon nak gi silat?" common. haha.
now, i feel like i'm living at bedok. when i was small, i have this kinda feeling when i wake up early in the morning. i can hear noises from aunties and uncles and small kids laughing, talking and scolding. i miss waking up on the double deck bed and look outside the window. oh, my bed is right beside the window. the smell of waking up is simply marvellous. and each day when i wake up, mama will definitely buy for me tau huay. or whatever it is. then i will on the tv and eat it while watching cartoons. i simply love the ambience there. living there for 12years is a long period. i had to leave my childhood friends. i had to leave my pri skool friends. everything seemed to be gone. i miss everything in bedok.
seriously, i dont feel right. everything feels so wrong. sure, there must be a reason. but i dunnoe whats the reason behind this. maybe its just a monthly thingy where i will always feel shitty. why does girls have this kinda thing man? i hate it when i am laughing and suddenly, i feel so shitty. and then my face will show it all. damn it.
for now, i better leave this space to be like this.
